My Life Difficulties

I knew life is way too fragile after going through so many funerals and news of death recently. I knew I shouldn't have being emotional but instead having fun and appreciate my life and people around me. However, human needs to face with their obstacles in life whether predictable or unpredictable BUT there's one thing that most humanity could not overcome with, LOVE!

I had been truly emotional about this recently. My emotional goes up and down because of this silly man which I would never expect him to actually influence me so much. I smile because of him, I gets jealous because of him, I get upset because of him and most of all , I cry because of him and that's simply too ridiculous.

I am hoping to get rid of what is in my mind but somehow it just appear every time when ever I felt of letting go. This is my second tough time in love. The first one is during my high school time. It was so bad that everyone ignores me and it takes me the entire high school life to go through it and that was serious 5 damn years long!!

How many meaningful things we can do in 5 years? And I? Wasted in upset and unpleasant life. I am not expecting anything at all that could once again get me into such difficult situation but I know I will once grow from this incident.

I am getting through really hard times. Not as serious as life or death but living humanity gets to suffer when you can't do anything but still have to continuously pretending you are all fine. At the end of the day, your mind and soul get tortured.

Hoping things would just disappear like dust gets blow away by wind. I am looking forward my rain to stop and I would see the rainbow and sunshine real soon.

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